afterliving | 01 [ voice / action ]

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Hello there, my name is Mami Tomoe. I'm a third year middle school student, and it looks like tomorrow will be my first day in class here.

I suppose I'll need to go and find some supplies for my first day at school? I never would have guessed I would need to looking for a notebook again after I died. Does anyone have any recommendations?

[ Mami's voice sounds a little cheery, though she's always been so very great at putting on a facade that hid her true feelings. ]

I hope I won't be too far behind the lessons, if I am I might have to ask someone to help tutor me so I can catch up.

Well, thank you for your time.

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[ On her first day Mami will be trying her best to find her classes, but she might need some helping making sure to go to the right room. Or perhaps she just looks lonely, sitting by herself as she eats, unable to convince herself to try and find someone to share lunch with. It might be obvious that there's something bothering her, perhaps the normalness of all she is suddenly hit with, after preparing herself for her own death.

In general though, she seems approachable, as she always has wanted to be, and wouldn't say no to a friendly face. ]

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[ Selfish.. there was nothing selfish about Mami wanting someone to fight by her side, right? She had been alone all that time, fighting for what's right all by herself, and she had been so very lonely during all of it.. there's nothing selfish about wanting some company in that. Especially not for someone as great as Mami, like a symbol of justice.. ]

Nnn, there's nothing that's your fault. Mami-san.. you fought so hard all this time. Even though you were lonely, you fought so hard, and.. then... [ She shakes her head lightly, looking down for a moment and biting her lip to prevent herself from tearing up in a way similar to Mami. ] .. you died.. before you could even get what you deserved, a happy life with someone you trust by your side..

And.. that's what is my fault.

[ Or so Madoka thinks. But she knows that at this rate it's just going to be them telling each other it's their fault over and over, so.. ]

This isn't a time to think though about whose fault something is.. we're.. dead, right? So.. we should at least enjoy the time we're giving with each other again now.

[ She lightly squeezes the other girl's hands. ]

Right?

[ Mami is still just a little confused, hearing Madoka's words. They don't seem to match up to what she would expect, but then, what about coming to this purgatory has been anything like she's expected. ]

Kaname-san...I'm sorry.. [ Mami can't hold back her sobs, not after hearing those words. She didn't want to, or expect to see Madoka here in the afterlife, but she is happy to see her all the same. She's still exactly the girl Mami remembers, compassionate and bright.

Mami knows she should be embarassed, crying to a girl younger than her, in a strange place, but she doesn't care. Being around Madoka is disarming, like she can't hold back anything that bothers her. ]

I miss Sakura-san, and Sayaka-san...I wanted to see them again too.. [ She's explaining why she killed herself, though Madoka might now see it that way. ]

[ Madoka is slowly realising that something is off here too - maybe just because of the mention of Kyouko while Madoka didn't even really know that the two of them ever met, let alone knew each other.. Kyouko only came to town after Mami died, right? Then maybe it's a Mami of a different timeline, but..

.. does that even really matter? Mami is Mami, no matter what. And to Madoka she'll always be such a hardworking and splendid girl. ]

Sorry, Mami-san.. I haven't seen them here yet. [ Just Homura, but she doubts that would be a very good thing for Mami, so she doesn't mention it. ] .. I promise I'll be here with you though, okay..? There's no way I'll leave you alone.. [ .. "again", but she tries to swallow it. It's hard though, remembering the memory of going to Mami's apartment and seeing it so empty and knowing it was all her fault. But for now, while Mami is crying, she'll do her best to be strong and comfort her. ]

[ On one hand, she know she should be happy that Kyouko and Miki didn't have the regrets that she had, that they were able to move on to heaven or samsara or whichever next step awaited them all. On the other hand, Mami feels selfish, wanting to see her friends, one more time. But she has Madoka, and soon she finds herself sobbing against the other's chest, her arms gently holding Madoka close to her.

It's wrong to put Madoka into this position, having to deal with her crying, with all her pent up sadness, again even, but Mami can't hold it back. She had cried while she died before, hoping that Madoka would forgive her for what she had to do to keep her promise to Kyouko. ]

Kaname-san, you're too kind to me.. [ She doesn't know what else to say, she just needs a bit more time to get her crying out, forcing herself to depend on Madoka's kindness yet again. ]

[ She doesn't mind it in the slightest. Sure, she minds that Mami is sad, but not in the sense that she could ever be angry at the girl for it. She just feels sad and worried about her, but Madoka knows that for now, all she can do is try to be there for her. So when Mami holds her like that, Madoka slowly moves her own arms up too to wrap them around the other girl and hold her in return.

There aren't many words since there probably don't have to be. It's a quiet kind of comfort -- or so Madoka hopes, either way. ]

You've worked really, really hard.. but it's alright now. [ The words are almost whispered against the other girl like this. ]

[ Mami never let her tiredness catch up with her in life. She worked every day or so defeating witch's familiars and witches, helping other girls when she could. Even on days when things were quiet she would spend it having friends over for tea and snacks, and that meant spending time cooking. She never realized how tired she was of everything. How she wanted to not have to think about the difficult things in her life. When she was with Kyouko, and Sayaka too, she was able to relax just a little.

Now, far away from Kyuubey and the witches, Mami cries, and lets herself feel everything she's been pushing away. ]

I'm sorry, I never asked if you were okay.. ..I already spoke to Akemi-san.. [ Meaning, she knows whatever Madoka knows. Or something like that. ]

I'm fine!

[ It's not really a lie. After all, even if she feels incredibly guilty over her death and how she wasn't able to help people and died for nothing.. she at least thinks this afterlife isn't all that bad. Especially because of the kind people all around. She's glad to have gotten the chance to meet them - and the chance to see people like Homura and now Mami again. ]

Hehe, really.. don't worry about me, Mami-san. [ She gives a bright smile at that. ] Homura-chan.. she wasn't too unkind to you, was she..?

[ Madoka knows by now that under her cold exterior Homura does have a lot of kindness and did a whole lot for her, but.. judging from the way Mami and Homura acted back home, she's not too sure if that went well here. ]

Akemi-san is the same as she's always been. [ That is to say, not friendly, but not outright antagonistic either. Despite everything, Mami does wish she could have found more in common with the other magical girl, so that they could have been a closer group of friends, but she had never found her agreeable to anything, and distanced herself so that Mami could never trust her. ]

I'm glad that you two have each other, so you are not alone.. [ How Mami means that is ambiguous, as she doesn't know how they feel about each other. She knows her own feelings for Kyouko, and Sayaka as well, are difficult to put into words, but she can guess how Homura and Madoka might see each other, or might see each other eventually. ]

[ Madoka can at least catch onto what Mami means by that, but.. it doesn't mean everything is lost yet entirely. If Homura is still acting that way towards Mami, then she'll just have to work hard to bring the two closer together, right? Homura and Mami are both kind people, so it should work.

But at the last part she shakes her head. ]

You're here too now! So.. I'm not alone anymore at all. You're a really good friend to me. [ Even if Homura might be her best friend. But she still can't help but look up to Mami all the same. ]

[ Mami knows that at some point, she and Homura were actually friends, that the girl had looked up to her at one point. But from her own perspective such a thing had never happened, though she doesn't think that Homura would be lying about that. Which means that some part of her believes that she could become friends with Homura again if she stopped pushing everyone away.

A slow smile at Madoka's comment appears on her face, as Mami moves to fill a simple cup from a can of tea. ]

This is all I could find on short notice, I hope that's okay.. [ Having someone over, Mami had to make sure that she had tea. ]

You might be the friendliest girl I've ever met, Kaname-san. I'm glad that you're here, all things considered..

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