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Hello there, my name is Mami Tomoe. I'm a third year middle school student, and it looks like tomorrow will be my first day in class here.

I suppose I'll need to go and find some supplies for my first day at school? I never would have guessed I would need to looking for a notebook again after I died. Does anyone have any recommendations?

[ Mami's voice sounds a little cheery, though she's always been so very great at putting on a facade that hid her true feelings. ]

I hope I won't be too far behind the lessons, if I am I might have to ask someone to help tutor me so I can catch up.

Well, thank you for your time.

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[ On her first day Mami will be trying her best to find her classes, but she might need some helping making sure to go to the right room. Or perhaps she just looks lonely, sitting by herself as she eats, unable to convince herself to try and find someone to share lunch with. It might be obvious that there's something bothering her, perhaps the normalness of all she is suddenly hit with, after preparing herself for her own death.

In general though, she seems approachable, as she always has wanted to be, and wouldn't say no to a friendly face. ]

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It does seem that way. [And she's glad about it. She really did miss having those lunches with Nine and Trinity.]

But yes! I would love that. We could go get your supplies today, and then get together tomorrow or another day for lunch or something...?

I always have one on me at all times.

[ There's a holster under her skirt with a gun, just in case. She can never be careful, after all. ]

People usually make their weapons with atomic restructuring. If you want me to teach you, I don't mind teaching you!

[ Having a new friend is scary, especially how all her other friendships had gone so far, but Mami wants to bad to be able to make a friend. ]

Today? I don't see why not. I'm still getting settled in, and I don't really know where to get supplies. I'd love to.

[ A gun. It reminds her a little of Homura's choices in weaponry, which makes her grimace just a little. ]

You know how to do something like that? I think..I might already know how to do that.

[ Well, how different could it be than creating weapons as she already did, or so she thinks. ]

Suzumiya-chan...you aren't a magical girl are you? [ And boom, dropped that bomb of a question already. ]

[ Haruhi blinks once, then twice. She's never actually seen anyone who knew how to do atomic restructuring before they were taught by someone- ]

Ah, really...? [ She'll just laugh awkwardly at that, uncertain. ] But no, I'm not a magical girl of any sort! Are you?

M-Me? [ She gets caught a little at that, having the question thrown back at her. It takes her a moment to decide what she should even say, imaging that Haruhi isn't lying to her. ]

No...I'm just a regular middle school girl. [ She smiles, trying her best not to sound like she's lying. ]

Mhm! I love her desserts, she's famous for them! Though she didn't always like me, since we were competing against each other... but we made up. [ Teacher crushes are hard. ]

Yes! Do you know where the Home Ec rooms are?

Hmm, I know. And.. I don't need anything, don't worry. [ She does know it's common for her to be drinking tea and having cake like when they did when they visited Mami those times, but this isn't about that. This isn't even like that. This is Mami hurting - of course she would, after that death - and Madoka can't just leave her alone. ]

I'll be right over, so.. please wait for me, okay? I'll hurry, I promise..!

[ The idea of seeing Madoka is painful, but she can safely say she wants to see the other girl more than having to see Homura again so soon. But she's still reminded of the things Homura told her, how she told her to keep the truth away from Madoka, to make sure not to burden her. And what right would Mami have to burden Madoka now, after doing the same thing in life. ]

I'll see you soon then, Kaname-san.

[ The one thing she tries to promise herself is that she won't cry. And Madoka shouldn't be too surprised when she makes it to Mami's room, that she's set up a few snacks that she's found and some iced tea from a bottle poured into cups. It's the best she can do on short notice! ]

That's good to hear, Amano-san. I'm sure she misses you very much.

[ God knows Mami didn't manage to make up with anyone before they died, and still owes just about everyone an apology herself. ]

No, I've never been there before.. I can try to ask a faculty member to point me in the right direction though.

... Oh, is that so.

[ She won't ask, even though Haruhi has the slight feeling that she's lying. Oh, well. ]

Man, and I thought I was going to meet someone with super-cool powers! I mean, I've met aliens, time travelers, and espers... a magical girl to top it all off would be amazing, you know?

You've met those type of people?

[ All those things are things Mami's met with, and knows exists. But she's surprised that Haruhi has seen them, despite not being a magical girl. The whole alternate world thing is still not something she understands. ]

You've must have had an interesting life then. [ Even though she had seen similar things, she would never say her life was interesting. Not after she found out the truth.. but at least she can fake enthusiasm to cheer up Haruhi. ]

Okay! We'll do that then. Shall we meet up later on...?

That was here.

[ Haruhi swallows nervously, shaking her head, a melancholic smile on her lips. ]

My life wasn't all that interesting, really...

[ Madoka sticks to her word. She doesn't want to make Mami wait anymore - and the idea of Mami waiting somewhere by herself all sad is already bad enough in itself - so she quickly takes off to literally runs towards the described place. She's even a little out of breath once she arrives at the door, but she honestly doesn't care about that anymore, the girl figures that she can just try and catch her breath as she waits for the other girl to open the door. Walking in would be rude even if she really badly wants to see Mami, after all..

So she carefully knocks on the door of Mami's room, staring at it expectantly. ]

I can come get you when you're ready if you'd like!

[ Ichigo doesn't mind going to fetch her, after all. It just means they get to meet sooner! ]

Oh okay, I'll wait outside the dorms then. It should be easy to find me, I'm the girl with blonde spirals in her hair.

[ Mami is okay with that. She's not really that worried about meeting a stranger, especially when she seems so nice! ]

[ It only takes a short moment for Mami to open the door at the sound of the knocks. There's being hesitant to see Madoka, and there's being completely rude, and Mami will not allow rudeness in herself. ]

Kaname-san...it's nice to see you again..

[ It hadn't been all that long really, but given what happened, it feels like an eternity. It's taking everything she has not to break down and cry, to apologize and ask for forgiveness for leaving Madoka alone to fight Walpuris Night. She's just trying to keep her forced smile on her face, and keep Madoka out of the dark. ]

Great. [ Mami is smiling, hopeful that things might turn out okay. ]

Just tell me where and when to meet you and I'll be there.

How about... Sometime in the afternoon? Around three, maybe...? We could meet up in the lobby of the dorms.

[ Mami's acting just like normal.

Even with everything that happened, even though her death was so obviously Madoka's fault - in her own eyes, at least - Mami is acting just like she always does. Even though she's hurting and in pain, Mami is...

It's a little bolder than what Madoka is used to doing, but she can't stand just doing nothing in this case. She reaches out to grab Mami's hands much like the way they were holding them right before Mami died. ]

M.. Mami-san! [ She lets that burst out, but then she needs another moment to think of what exactly to even say. What will help Mami the most? What will show that she's so, so very sorry for letting Mami die after having fought by herself painfully all these years..? ]

I.. I'm so sorry for everything, Mami-san, I really am... but.. I really meant it. When I said that you wouldn't have to fight by yourself anymore, I really meant that, it's what I wished for you..! I really was going to be by your side..

[ Of course Madoka remembers events entirely different than Mami does, but it makes sense for her recollection. ]

[ From the beginning Mami's worn this false face, the one she adopts when she sees Madoka again. It hurts to see her, it hurts to know that Kyouko and Sayaka are both moved on, but Madoka is still here, and it just hurts so much. It's almost enough to make Mami break down as soon as she sees that pink hair and those caring eyes. ]

Why are you...why are you apologizing..? [ Tears are welling up in her eyes, but she doesn't break down sobbing yet, because the confusion is too much. She doesn't know why Madoka would apologize. She has always been the perfect kouhai, the perfect friend, she doesn't know what Madoka thinks she did wrong. ]

It's not your fault...It's mine, I was selfish, I didn't want to be alone anymore..

[ Mami may be making things more confusing, but her tears are coming down again and all she can do is cry with her chin to her chest, her hands still held by Madoka. ]
I-I'm so sorry...

That's perfect, Mercury-san. I'll make sure not to make you wait.

[ Selfish.. there was nothing selfish about Mami wanting someone to fight by her side, right? She had been alone all that time, fighting for what's right all by herself, and she had been so very lonely during all of it.. there's nothing selfish about wanting some company in that. Especially not for someone as great as Mami, like a symbol of justice.. ]

Nnn, there's nothing that's your fault. Mami-san.. you fought so hard all this time. Even though you were lonely, you fought so hard, and.. then... [ She shakes her head lightly, looking down for a moment and biting her lip to prevent herself from tearing up in a way similar to Mami. ] .. you died.. before you could even get what you deserved, a happy life with someone you trust by your side..

And.. that's what is my fault.

[ Or so Madoka thinks. But she knows that at this rate it's just going to be them telling each other it's their fault over and over, so.. ]

This isn't a time to think though about whose fault something is.. we're.. dead, right? So.. we should at least enjoy the time we're giving with each other again now.

[ She lightly squeezes the other girl's hands. ]

Right?

[ Mami is still just a little confused, hearing Madoka's words. They don't seem to match up to what she would expect, but then, what about coming to this purgatory has been anything like she's expected. ]

Kaname-san...I'm sorry.. [ Mami can't hold back her sobs, not after hearing those words. She didn't want to, or expect to see Madoka here in the afterlife, but she is happy to see her all the same. She's still exactly the girl Mami remembers, compassionate and bright.

Mami knows she should be embarassed, crying to a girl younger than her, in a strange place, but she doesn't care. Being around Madoka is disarming, like she can't hold back anything that bothers her. ]

I miss Sakura-san, and Sayaka-san...I wanted to see them again too.. [ She's explaining why she killed herself, though Madoka might now see it that way. ]

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